I love you a lot
So much that I’ll stop
sayin’ it a lot
if that’s what you want
I think you said that once
That we should stop
saying I love you a lot
You said you didn’t want
it to not mean a lot
But I think I forgot
I’m sorry if that’s why
maybe we stopped
You ask me to roll over
but I’m already on the edge of my side.
I’m facing the other way tonight.
You can’t take it back
once you’ve said nothing.
Enough space between us
to go unheard constantly.
Pause the tv
and ask me to repeat myself but
I’m hoping quietly
that my silence will help
bring back the part of me
that no longer seems to exist.
The part of me that
I didn’t know I had
but you couldn’t resist.
The part of me that
just like them
we’re starting to always forget.
Did you stop loving me
or maybe
all of me you never did?
I don’t mean to try
to read your mind
Or take up your space
Or invade your time
I’m not even really sure why
when it bothers you
to be annoyed and so am I
Still, I can’t help but try
to decode the silence
every night that
you grow quiet.
Should I roll up something
to make it right?
Should we talk while smoking?
I don’t wanna fight.
We were having such a good night
but then I couldn’t shake the feeling that I
didn’t matter
so my past and I
instigated a fight
with you that I hope
doesn’t shatter us.
I’m a mess and a disaster.
And I think I turn on myself
to manipulate you
into forgiving me faster.
Purse your lips
You keep quiet
You’re being a dick
but I’d take a kiss
over the silence